so its been a busy few days since its the first few days of training. but its been so amazing. eventhough i may be tired and hungry when I get back, it really does make me happy that im working at the camp. sometimes though when we’re sitting there listeing and going around doing exercises I feel like i’m just not cut out for it or i’m just not on the same level as the others. what if I mess up with the kids. the system is so legit and so hardcore and we have to follow so many things with these kids its just going to be so tough. im a little discouraged not gonna lie but i think once i REALLY memorize these definitions like we’re required to then maybe ill feel better. heres to a few more days of heck and studying like its heck week in college and to an amazing summer filled with so much experience and memories. and hopefully being more comfortable with the people and contributing to our group exercises. yay green team<3
training was today. woke up to a phone call from a friend which was really sweet and started my day off on a good note. i was really nervous for today and scared but im glad my day started off with that phone call eventhough i was half awake. made me feel so much better and felt like someone cared to call me and say good luck eventhough i got it the night before. i was scared i wouldnt meet people but i talked to someone in te waiting room. saw old faces from the interview and gabe:]] though i was too shy to talk to him today i dont even know if he remembered me. :[ but it was good. we did ice breakers and introduced people sitting next to us which was fun. the group seems pretty chill so im looking forward to a good summer with them and the kids:] lots of work and rules to memorize but its going to be such an amazing experience. heres to day 2. hoping itll be better
so scared and excited.what to do?!
tmrws the first day of training! I can’t believe its already here.I had my first interview like two months ago and got the job like over a month ago.its so insane that school ended more than 2 weeks ago and training is tmrw.. im so scared yet so excited to start but reading this manual has scared me shitless I can’t even explain to you.have to have all these rules.pt values and notes memorized and some even verbatim.im so scared they’ll test me tmrw and ill get fired for not having a good memory.but in my defense this shit is HARDCORE. definitions are a lot and then there are notes on them and things that contradict it.ugh a whole bunch of stuff and some big words that just straight up confuse me and complicate it.so to have to know them verbatim?! im so screwed. what if I mess up something and I don’t understand something or can’t handle the kids.I understand there’s training but ugh.what if im the most stupid one there and the slowest one and the kids hate me? so tempted to pull an all Nighter just so I can be more confident.
so maybe im more scared than excited..
